In the past two years, I have changed. I may not realise it myself – who does – but I know I have changed. Everybody changes over time, and often these changes remain undocumented, unrealised and unknown. For the most, myself included, they fall into this category. But one thing I do, one thing I have begun to enjoy doing, is taking a snapshot of myself. Me, in the moment of doing whatever, is me. And here is I.
In the past two years I have done many of a thing, and also not done many of a thing. I have launched and closed three websites, at least. I have redesigned a couple as well, although not entirely original, I am pleased with what I have done. Like most things, the moon was the aim and the halfway point was just about reached.
I have also developed a site to the point where I feel I can no longer cope. I have looked at the site, and myself as well, and taken a long time contemplating its, and my own future. This contemplation is ongoing. Needless to say it and I will continue. But the thought process that goes on in the background? That is ongoing. Ongoing for the next two years, undoubtedly.
Away from the online world, I have loved and had that ripped away from me. In quite possibly the hardest thing I have had to deal with, my life suddenly changed in five minutes. But I grew, developed and moved on. I have surfed more in the past two years than I have at any time previous to this. I have experienced one of my passions more than I ever thought I would be able to.
I have been praised and criticised in this time, had moments of desperate lows and moments so exhilarating words cannot describe. I have listened, I have learned, I have forgotten and I have apologised. I’ve kicked arse and I have been beaten. I have won and I have lost.
Looking at myself, as hard as it is, I know I have changed. I may not see it, but I know that I have. I have grown older, I have matured, chilled on some things and become wound up by others. I look at life ever so slightly differently. Hopefully, in a better way. But with equal hope, with plenty of room for improving and developing.
I have promised a post about why I have done what I am about to link to, and this is not that post. However, it is a mark to all who think that people do not change. They do. We do. I do. This is my diary. My online thoughts and random ponders about nothing and everything. Prodrivel mostly, but even BlogF1 often contains tidbits about me in the moment, but like they say, a picture paints a thousands words…
Prodrivel was this site’s previous name.